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this is what we did today. I have more pictures over on my flickr, but i'll probably post those over here monday!

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i'm in a mood today--a mood for food.
good god, this is probably my favorite meal ever. i worked there for a year and ate it weekly, and yet--nope, still not tired of it. if there's any reason to visit austin in the springtime, its for the stuffed avocado and a margarita on the deck at trudy's. yummmmmm. what's for dinner?

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i scanned a bunch of pictures from my old photo albums today. this is of me and my grandfather. who, incidentally, i spent three hours with today. but i pretty much see him every day or every other day anyway. i rarely mention it because we pretty much just sit around making fun of eachother for a few hours and then i come home. when i was growing up, he lived in the mountains of new mexico, but as he got older it became more difficult for him to be away from hospital care, so he moved across the street from us. now i see him all the time. so does elliot, which i love.i also love that my grandpa doesn't really look any older than he does in this picture.
took elliot to the doctor today. he has a cold and there's nothing i can do about it except turn on the humidifier. he also told me i could give him half a dropper of dimetapp at night only so he can sleep better. and he gave me a list of things to watch for so he doesn't get RSV. unfortunately, the doctor drew a flippin' diagram of how this cold will progress and he says its a 14 day cold that hasn't even peaked yet. hellllla bummer. i rubbed some vicks on his chest after his bath tonight. he is very passed out in his crib!!! (CRIBB!) he never sleeps in his crib but i've been trying like crazy to get him into sleeping in his crib for at least the first part of the night because my mattress is too soft and i feel like he rolls into me and its just not as safe as i want it to be. hopefully i'll get more sleep tonight. speaking of which, i should get going.
i'm working on a bit of a project. hopefully i'll get it done in the timeframe i need.e is in his crib sleeping, so i should probably get to it.
Christopher Saathoff


july 1, 1977 - february 14, 2004
i can't really explain what i'm feeling right now. for someone who is always behind the camera, these are the only pictures i have left---the first two taken the night we met. New Year's, Chicago 2003. The night that he was my New Year's kiss on the dot.. the second on one of his return trips through austin. we spoke all the time. about his life--about his music, about the perfect drug (nine inch nails to be precise) i'd seen him several times since new years--each time he stayed at my apartment, we'd talk into the night-- and i was just weeks away from seeing him again for sxsw....and today comes news that he is gone. forever. and i don't know how to describe the words i'm feeling right now. like waves washing over me...shock. sadness. anger. and none of them is accurate. none of them encapsulates this..what THIS is. i don't think i've ever lost a friend this close before...you were my perfect drug. damn. this hurts.



